aQ yG dI siNi...

hurmmmm....lame aq tak pos ape2 un...maaflah...kesibukan yg semakin melanda nak dekat2 exam neyh un...blog neyh cam diary rite??so...i want 2 share sumtinx here...act bnde neyh tak pnting pown sebenarnye..tp juz nak meluah un ape yg aq rase jewp..haty....terdiri daripada otot2 yg lmbut un???aq sangat2 berharap klu haty aq neyh d jadi un daripada batu atau ape2 bahan yg keras tahap gaban...aq da ta snggop lg nak menanggung sume rase sakit...sume rase yg mbuat un aq menangis bila malam melabuh un tirainya..mungkin untuk sesetengah owg...mempunyai rasa cinta itu sesuatu yg indah...tp bg aq...cinta merupakan satu bentuk penyiksaan yg brpanjangan...cinta amat menyakitkan...antara cinta yg hadir dalam hidup aq...boleh d kire dngan jari berapa jewp yg dapat membahagiakn aq...walaubagaimanapun...walau sesakit mane pun...manusia seperti aq masih lagi mahu...menyimpan sedikit perasaan cinta itu...amazing rite??tapi...cinta aq simpan neyh...tak seindah cinta orang laen...sebabnya...aq tak dapat nak meluahkan ape yg aq rase pada si dea yg aq cinta...tp ape pown...aq sempat rase gak sayang dea...walaupun towk tempoh mase yg sangat2 la singkat...tp aq masih lg menganggap itu sesuatu yg amad berharga..thanx sayangs...thanx sangat coz bg peluang kat ieyra sayang un kamoo...ieyra tahu kamu sedang bahagia disamping dea skunx neyh...ieyra doa kan yang terbaek buat kamoo bersama dea...ieyra tahu dan tersangat lah pasti yg ieyra dah lakukan 1 pengorbanan yg tak akan sia2...ieyra tahu dea leyh jage kamoo dengan baek sekali...tp ieyra mohon pada kamoo...jangan penah sekali pun kamoo bg ieyra 1 lg harapan palsu...ieyra mohon jangan sakiti ieyra lg...

Larian 1 Malaysia

ni gambar time lepas larian 1 Malaysia

ingat nak amik gambar ngan miss myra..

tp tgk dye ngah kusyuk bercakap ngan kawan2 dye..

terus xjd..

patah la jugak hati ni..

huhuhu..

tp nasib bek la lepas tu kene kumpul kat dewan..

dapat la dduk kejap ngan dye..

xde la kempunan..

yang sedihnye xdapat amik gambar ngan miss myra..

sbb time tu lupe nak bawak kamera..

sedih lorhh!

symphaty

kecian at kawan aku..
dye keracunan makanan..
td dye xdtg skolah coz dye cirit-birit..
semalam dye da g jmpe doktor..
tu yang dye dapat cuti ari ni..
ramai ar jugak budak sekolah aku xdtg td..
budak kelas aku je 3orang yang xdtg sbb skit perut..
tp nak wat mcm mane kan ..
benda da nak jadi..
ape-ape pun aku doakan kawan aku ni cepat sembuh dan boleh datang sekolah lg esok..

cantiknyerrrr!

hari tu time ari sukan sekolah xdapat dtg..

kene g anta kakak g mc untuk blik ipoh..

nyesal xdtg..

dgr citer miss myra cantik sgt time tu..

kalau saye dtg mesti da byk amik gambar ngan dye..

gmbar ni saye amik dari fb..

kalau u all tgk mesti kate cantik..

cantik kan?

ni ade lg..

bukan yang pakai baju warne itam tu taw..

sebelah dye tu..

yang pakai baju itam tu kawan miss myra..

tu pown cantek kan?

tapi ape2 pun..

miss myra adalah yang paling cantek di hati ku..

tbe best experience

miss myra!
saye syg sangat tat miss myra..
i hope u too..
miss mira is the best in my life..
teringat time kite kuar same2..
g mp n g dp..
that its the best experience..
i hope u not forget it..
kalau miss myra lupe..
saye la orang yang paling sedih..
ni gambar time kite kuar kali pertama..
ingat lagi x?

time tu kite g celebrate bezday kak syiro..
n time tu jugak kite g  tgk wayang..
miss myra ingat lg x tajuk dye?
tajok dye ' lagend of the guardian'
ni pulak gambar time kita kuar kali kedua..
kat mp n dp jugak..

jgn lupe kenangan ni smpai bile2 taw!

You have my heart...I just don't know how to tell you

^ You're not my friend, friends don't look at     each other like we do. You're not my friend,     friends don't touch each other the way we     do.  You're not my friend, friends don't kiss     like we do.  So then...what are you?   ^ I know I have to be careful with this kind of    relationship we have.  And I think the best    way of doing that is to just let things ride out    on their own and see what happens next.  I    don't want to jump into something that still    might not be ready to become something    more again.   ^ I think you have to be friends before you can     fall in love.     ^ When friends kiss, they are no longer friends     and not yet lovers.  They are something in     between. ^ Sometimes your brain gets in the way of what    your heart really wants to say.   ^ I love you.  I love you not because you're    adorable or because you're sweet, or because    you're my best friend.  I love you because you    make me step outside myself and look at who    I really am.  You make me want to be a better    person just becuase you are who you are.  I    can tell you absolutely everything and I know    you will listen.  And you're one of my best    friends.  But I will keep all of this to myself    because I love you, but you do not love me...I    wish that I could make you love me, but I    cannot.  That is why these words will be    forever lost in my memories, never to be    spoken aloud: I love you.   ^ My heart longs to tell you about my love for    you.  I wish I could.  I wish I could tell you    just how much you have touched me.  Just    how much you have taught me.  Just how    much you've made me happy.  Just how when    you hold me, my body tingles.  Just how when    you smile at me, it touches my heart in such a    way that no one else can ever come close    to.  Just how the way you love me makes me    want to be a better person.  Just the way with    every breath I love you more and more.  Just    the way I want nothing more than to be able    to hold you everyday of my life, and how that    alone would be enough.  But, I can't tell you    all these things, the way I truly feel because    there aren't enough words in this entire    world, that can truly explain just how I love    you.   ^ Why does everyone just assume that I still     like you?  Am I really that predictable or is it     just that obvious?   ^ You looked into my eyes and whispered that     you wanted to be with me, all my heart     wanted to do was say that I wanted to be with     you too, but there are too many reasons why     our love right now is forbidden, so baby, we     must keep all this hidden.   ^ you've got my heart, but he just doesn't know it     yet.   ^ I've learned that guys make the best friends.    My best friend is a guy and I can tell him    anything.  Except for the fact that I'm    absolutely crazy for you! I always seem to    leave that part out of the conversation.   ^ I hate the fact that you have no clue about    the way I really do feel for you.  I hate the    fact that we're just friends...and that's   it...NoThInG more...I hate the way you make   me cry and the way you act like I'm not there.   Loving you just really sucks...I have to   admit...it's just not fair.

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sometimes people just don't understand...

~ She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story. ~ Behind my smile is a hurting heart.  Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.  Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me. ~ To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything. ~Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself. ~ I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy, something bad always happens. ~ Just once I want someone to look at me right away and think I was beautiful.  Not after they get to know me, or after they see inside my soul, just me.  I want to walk in a room and light up, not blend. ~ I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much. ~ A golden heart stopped beating, working hands went to rest.  He broke many hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best. ~ When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget. ~There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me.  Somehow I'm not surprised. -Eeyore- ~ I wake up and think dreams are real.  I sleep so I don't have to feel. ~ It's not that I wanna have it, it's just that I wanna deserve it. ~ I don't know if you've ever felt like that.  That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that.  I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this.  That's why I'm trying not to think.  I just want it all to stop spinning. -The Perks of Being A Wildflower- ~ Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face.  Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl.  Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl.  Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why.  She lays in her bed at night and cries.  She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears?  She has it all.  A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she gets good grades, has her own car, and her makeup never fades.  Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way.  This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem. ~ I don't deserve you...I never did. ~ Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand. ~ No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me. -Reel Big Fish- ~ Cause fucking up takes practice, and I feel I'm well rehearsed.  ~ I didn't want to admit it.  It was easier to lie.  Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry. ~ I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it. ~ Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault. ~ Why can't you just love me for who I am? ~ Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense?  Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile... ~ I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain. ~ Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.  So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.  I wanna go back to when Santa did exist.  When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed.  When Disney World was the best place to be.  When the only movies you could see were rated G.  When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same.  And every time you were sad or you had a bad day.  You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay.  I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.  When everyone always lives happily ever after. ~ When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly fine in the morning.  Why do I smile like nothing is wrong?  And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay? ~ I don't know what I want in life.  I don't know what I want right now.  All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left.  Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it.  But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me.  And I don't know what to do.  I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more. ~ Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as I look to the sky, and I question how come life keeps passing me right on by.  I just wonder why I can't escape, is this my fate?  To always be unhappy and how much longer must I wait... ~ Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever. ~ It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you.   -Scrubs- ~ I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go by, I wanna get lost and I don't know why.   -Everclear- ~ Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes?  If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do. ~ Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't?  Would anyone notice? ~ I'm not saying I have nothing.  I'm not saying I'm gone completely.  It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle.  Sometimes I feel like it's too much.  I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right?  Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years.  But for now, just for now, it hurts. ~ You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's ok to be sad?  But then there are times when you're supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even worse than the times when you're supposed to be sad. ~ I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything?  Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate myself.